Before.....After

This week I was able to redo our Guest room/Makayla's big girl room. Makayla is pretty spoiled and has 2 bedrooms. This room is our guest room but she has been sleeping in it on the queen bed for about a year now, but she still has her bedroom that has her crib and toys and clothes in. We figure when we eventually have another baby she will move into this room permanently while her other bedroom will be the nursery. Anyway so here are the before and after pictures of the new room!

Before..

and after...

Yes it is very purple, but in person it actually looks really good and I think I did a pretty good job at making it feel like a guest room and still have it be fun and girly for Makayla. I still have a few more things to do like adding something over the bed and other little things but that wont happen for a while.

I was a bit afraid with the dark purple walls that it would make the room feel darker, but it has so much white in it that it feels so open and airy. I am normally not a huge fan of dark colors on walls, I like more lighter colors, but I really wanted to do something different and fun for Makayla's room and I did not want to do pink, I figured she could grow into it also and still like it as a young teen too if we are still in this home when she's that age.

the dresser in the left pic was the old dresser I already had that I just painted and I LOVE IT! Originally I was going to take off the handles and fill in the holes and add one or two really cute knobs, but I didn't really have the knobs in my budget so I decided I would just paint it and keep the same handles for now then change it later, well...after painting and putting the old handles on I fell in love with it. I instantly changed plans and am now keeping the same handles. I love how it makes the dresser feel kind of antiqued and elegant.

With the nightstand I got it at a garage sale for 20 bucks and just saw it in target the other day for 60 dollars! yeah what a steal and the lamp I fell in love with and splurged a bit. It was originally 80 bucks but it was 50 percent off at hobby lobby so I bought that beauty for $40. That super cute clock I got at Goodwill for like 8 bucks or something. Not bad right!

and Last but not least! My headboard!!! Found a really awesome door that was solid wood with perfect paneling, it looked like it could have been almost 100 years old or so, and had gorgeous detailing for the door knob. I bought it for 20 dollars at a big warehouse and I sawed a big chunk from one side and the other (it was a huge door) to fit the length of the bed and painted it black. I also painted the door knob black, then white and sanded down the white so the black would show through and added it to the top middle of the headboard. Before it was not centered since I had to cut the door to fit the bed. I think it turned out pretty dang cute. I love how the room just pulled together so pretty. I got such a good deal on the bedding as well it sells in bed bath and beyond for $150 (still had the price tag on it from bed bath and beyond) and I got it at TJ Max for $47! Heck ya! And it was all ready in time for my sister and brother to get here this weekend!

Big Girl!

Makayla turned 2!!

I cant believe my little baby is now 2 years old! Wow how time flies when you have a kid. For her birthday breakfast she got a bit spoiled and got to eat her favorite breakfast. She ate a chocolate doughnut with chocolate frosting and chocolate milk. And she loved ever bit of it!!

We had such a fun day. Her birthday was on Wednesday which was the day Robert gets to work from home so he was able to spend the day with us so that was great. After breakfast she opened her presents which she got a tricycle and a few other little toys, then we went to the park where she played with some friends

after the park we went to McDonald's for some lunch, ice cream and playing on the playground. It was so much fun!

She absolutely loves her tricycle!!

We decided not to throw a party this year so we spend the night playing and she had her favorite dinner which is pancakes, then she helped me make cupcakes and frosting and ended the night with more fun and lots of hugs and kisses!

She just amazed me at how much she is learning day by day. Her vocabulary is expanding everyday and she is becoming the sweetest little thing. She spends most nights kissing us non stop and let me tell you she kisses the cutest, she now kisses with closed mouth and little fish lips ugh we LOVE it!

Here are a few of her favorite things to do...

-Dance (she LOVES to dance)

-Read books

-Pray (she says her own quick little prayer in her cute gibberish) so cute

-Give lots of hugs and kisses

-Find little stuffed animals or toys and hold them so dear to her face and sleep with them and give them lots of kisses (she is very much into kissing these days)

-Sing songs (may not be saying actual words but she thinks she is singing)

-Play at the park multiple times a day

-And help mommy clean like sweeping, vacuuming, and putting things away

Our sweet Makayla is such a blessing in our lives and we just love her so much! Happy Birthday Toots! Mommy and Daddy are so proud of you!

Picture Perfect!

I just love this man!

and this little girl

and my life with both of them!

Surgery Update

So here's another post with no pictures =( I mean I can take a picture of my stomach after surgery but...its not very pretty.

Here's what happened day of surgery. We had to be at the hospital at 8am, we get there, sign in and they take us back pretty quickly. They asked questions (all that routine stuff) then start hooking me up to my IV. My surgery appointment was for 9:30 but the doctor was running late so they didn't take me back until 10, when they said they were taking me back to the room and I had to leave Robert I was so nervous. The feeling was like when you are on a roller coaster and you can see the drop your about to go down and you get that anxious feeling, that's kind of how it felt, except I wasn't going to feel the tickle tummy part. When I got in the room where they were going to operate, I felt a sting in my arm where the IV was and I started getting dizzy, I asked them if they had put some stuff in me already and they said yes, the next thing I know I'm asleep and waking up in recovery.

In the meantime surgery was only supposed to take 2 hours at the longest and while Rob was waiting in the waiting room he would see all the doctors with other patients come in and update their family members and finally after 3 hours and just a few min earlier he had heard code red, code blue and all that other scary stuff, then the doc finally came out and called Robert into a different room where there were 2 other nurses with her and one looked like she was crying so he had thought "things took a lot longer than expected and he had just heard code red and blue and a nurse was crying that something had happened to me" well she has said everything went good, they removed my cyst successfully and that they had found endometriosis. Then she said it would be another hour until he could see me then another hour till we could leave, so he decided to run to the cafeteria to get food, since he had been there the whole morning waiting.

While I'm in recovery waking up they asked me if my husband had stayed there and I told them yes and they said they were trying to find him and couldn't. So then I start getting worried that maybe he left and had gotten in a car accident, so they called him and got a hold of him and he finally came in, I guess after the doc had talked to him and said it would be another hour until he could see me he left to get food but they called him in to see me 15 min after talking to the doc. haha anyways the whole day of surgery and day after I was in pain, but sleeping on and off the whole day. It was actually a blessing in disguise that I had this cyst that didn't go away because without doing the surgery they never would have found our that I have endometriosis and therefore It most likely would have taken a few more years to conceive and most likely clomid wouldn't have even worked for me. Its actually pretty lucky that it only took us a year to conceive Makayla. So although this was all very hard to go through, it brought us to a reason for our infertility. Endometriosis is one of the top 3 reasons for infertility, and once you have it you have it for life, it will come back in a couple years, but in the meantime now that she got rid of it temporarily we can conceive much quicker and maybe have 2 kids before it coming back and needing surgery again.

Today my dad left and my mom gets to stay until sat or Sunday to help with Makayla. They had to make 4 incisions in my belly and it has been pretty painful along with the bad back pain I've had from the carbon dioxide they put in the belly, but today I'm moving around much better, but I feel very glad to have medicine that helps me feel better or I would not be a happy person!

Venting...

This blog is pretty much my journal so feel free to read or not read I just want to be able to look back at what I went through the good and the bad. Even If my hubby doesn't love that I share my personal experiences on here often.

What I really want to know is what is going on with my hormones! Seriously in no way do I feel like a basket case when I'm with Robert, but when I'm alone I seem to have many more tearful moments. I try to keep it all together when I'm with him (really who wants a crazy emotional wife) but I do fail sometimes and lean on him with all my stress and frustrations. I go from feeling happy and knowing things will work out to sobbing uncontrollably at how frustrated I feel.

I've been seeing a fertility specialist for 3 or 4 months now and it has been a journey. They found a cyst on my ovary 3 months ago and put me on birth control to get rid of it. They use birth control for cysts and 80 percent of the time they go away within a month or 2 and by 3 months the majority of the time it is completely gone. Well I'm my annoying situation my cyst not only hasn't gone away after 3 months but hasn't shrunk at all. Its actually grown (just a tad) but none the less they gave us an option to do surgery to remove the cyst or ignore it and do Clomid instead, but if we ignore it and the fact that it hasn't shrunk at all there is a high risk it could grow and maybe even rupture and if we got pregnant first round on Clomid It could cause major complications during and after pregnancy. So we opted to go with surgery and that's what my doc thought would be best as well since they don't really know if the cyst is cancerous (they don't think so because of my age but there is a possibility it could be). My surgery date is on Feb 1st a week in a half away and I'm kind of nervous. I've never had surgery so that scares me, but I am very anxious to get this thing out of me and start moving on with this baby making process. I'm lucky to have my mom come out for a week to take care of us. I just wished I knew what the lord had in store for us. Weather we get pregnant in a couple months or couple years I could cope so much better being able to know when and why, but I know going through all this heartache is only going to make me a stronger person and better mother for going through it. I am so lucky to have the most beautiful daughter in the world, she has kept me together many times knowing she is in my life. I love her to pieces and hope we can give her a sibling one day. Sorry if this has bored you sometimes things need to be written down to get a grip and start fresh again.

Beginning of a new year

I am very excited for this new year! 2011 has already brought me some wonderful moments and some tough ones. Without going into details this past week we were faced with something that has made us make a decision we were not prepared for. We are still making our decision and I am having a difficult time with it. Through out all this and the frustrations I am having I have also felt the spirit so strong and it has really opened up my eyes to see the life I have and live.

I cannot express how much love I have for my Heavenly Father and how blessed I am to be a part of the church and know that without a doubt it is true. Just this past week the Gospel has given me so much hope and trust that no matter what everything has always and will always work out if I continue to do what is right. I am so happy I have a calling where I can be with the wonderful sunbeams. This past Saturday Robert and I went on a date. Just the normal dinner and movie, nothing out of the ordinary, but for some reason I felt so much closer to him and felt so incredibly happy that he is in my life. I am such a lucky woman to have found the man of my dreams. I don't tell him enough that I am drop dead in love with him just as much as the day we got married. I mean I tell him I love him constantly but I want him to know he has made me so happy and even through the hard times and the trials we have faced it has been so comforting to know he is always on my side and I can always turn to him.

Onto other things, this cute little girl has been in such a sweet and fun phase. She is learning so many new things and we cannot get enough of her. Lets just say we are pretty much obsessed with Makayla. Thank you honey for being the man you are and for taking care of us and thank you my sweet Makayla for coming into our life.

Dinner anyone??

We got this cute little kitchen for Makayla for christmas and she loves it! All we need to get is some fake food and she is readay to start baking =)